you, unexpectedly

you, unexpectedly

you were there all the time, and i was too.

and for the record, i’m proud to know all your heartaches.

i can still remember the times you’d cry nonstop because you’re hurting. i can still remember hearing from another friend that you have drowned yourself in alcohol again. i can still remember being mad at you because you’re so weak, but i can also remember giving you a pat on your back just to put a little comfort, after. and yes, i can still remember the things i said:

to you —

that you deserve to be happy,

and not to be sad.

that you deserve to be loved,

and not to be hurt.

to them —

to take care of you,

not to take you for granted.

to keep you,

not to keep you miserable.

i was just being your friend in those times, you know. someone that you can lean on, someone that you can call if you’re feeling lonely.

i was trying my very best to be that friend… to be someone that you need, because that’s what makes me happy.

and now, who would have thought?

you were just there, and i was too.

you were looking for something real,

i was waiting for something lasting.

i never really expected we would find it in each other.

r.m.

Currently: Entry 5

Hello pip! How are you? It’s been a while again, yes, and I am hoping that every one’s okay during this time. Things are becoming harder every day, but let’s not forget to pray and hope for a better tomorrow, okay? okay! So, uhm, since I am not working from home since the lockdown, I have done so many things such as reading my pending to read lists, writing my owads, watching some anime/korean series & movies, and making some random drawings at home. And now, I would like to update this blog. Hehe. It’s been frozen for so many months, and now, I think, is the best time to write something  here. So yep, let’s now start this currently entry 5!

R E A D I N  G

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire! Yes, finally! I’m on book 4 huhu. I started reading the book 1 earlier this year, and I am so happy that I’m on  book 4 na! Feeling ko matatapos ko yung buong series this month. Well, sana. Sulitin ko na yung time na meron ako ehe.

W R I T I N G

None? Haha. Just kidding. I am currently writing (drafting lol)  my day 93 for my owad  #onewritingaday) project, and men, I must say I am running out of topics! Huhu.  I should never quit. Kaya ko ‘tong tapusin. I still have remaining 273 days! At oo, ‘di pa uli ako nakakapagpost since March 31 hehe.

L I S T E N I N G

Well, my sister is currently on a meeting with her boss (coz she’s working from home) and I am listening to them talking mehehehe. Nothing else. Oh but, lss ako sa Lover of Mine ng 5 Seconds of Summer. Ganda! 

W A T C H I N G

None, but I plan to watch some animes I’ve downloaded last week. hehehehe.

T H I N K I N G

About this ECQ. If it will be extended, or what will happen after this. Can I still go back to work? To the apartment? Can I still see my friends? Are they okay? When will this end? Mga ganun.

H O P I N G

for every thing to be back to normal again. for my friends’ and loved ones’ safety.

N E E D I N G

A hug from my giliw. HAHAHA. lande ko ‘noh?

W A N T I N G

to lose weight! HAHAHA. Hirap e. :(

F E E L I N G

Worried. But yeah, I’m trying not to. Pinagpapasa-Diyos ko na lang ang lahat. I know He’ll protect the people and those who are in need. And yep, I also feel hopeful.

Magiging ayos din ang lahat.