Sana…

“Kaya nung sinabi niya na gusto ka niya, nainis ako kasi bakit parang gano’n na lang kadali ang umamin? Sana kinaibigan ka muna niya.. Sana nakita niya muna yung mga nakita ko. Sana may ginawa muna siya para sa’yo. Ang dami kong sana…”

Sana kaya ko rin ibalik lahat, lahat – hindi lang mga ginawa mo, kundi maging ang nararamdaman mo. Pero sorry kaibigan, hindi ko talaga kaya.

Sana normal na lang yung gano’n. Yung kahit maibalik ko yung kung anong ibinibigay mo, walang magagalit, walang magsasabing mali. Pero kasi, kahit naman na pilitin kong gawing tama, ay hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kaya.

Sana pwede kong pawiin lahat nung sakit, o kaya kabiguan mo sa pag-iisip na hindi ka magiging masaya sa gano’ng bagay. Pero kahit na sabihin kong someday ay may darating na gagawa nang mga iyan, ay alam kong hindi ka pa rin lubos na magiging masaya dahil sa hinahawakan mong paniniwala.

Masakit malaman na gano’n pala talaga, but at the same time, masaya. Dahil alam kong may isang taong walang ibang gugustuhin kundi ang nakabubuti para sa akin. Sa kabilang banda, nakakalungkot… kasi gusto ko ikaw rin maging masaya. Gaya ng kagustuhan mong maging masaya ako.

Salamat. Salamat sa lahat. Gusto kong maiyak. Nakalulungkot.

Nakakadisappoint din, dahil all this time, buong akala ko ay ibang tao. Narinig ko pa nga ang mga hinaing mo, binigyan pa nga kita ng mga advise, tapos malalaman ko na ang totoo, ako pala talaga iyon at hindi ang pangalang nabanggit mo. Dapat noong tinanong kita kung sino, ay sinabi mo na ang katotohanan.

Sana tama ang naaiisip ko… na product lang lahat ng utak mo. Na iniisip mo lang na mayroon kang naramdaman – nararamdaman – ewan.

Sana hindi ko na lang pala nalaman.

Failed Jump Shots to These! :P

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???????????????????????????????It’s me (pale blue shirt) and mami (yellow shirt, friend since highschool) Teheeee. I love the second picture! :D

 

Page 22 of 365: Missing you…

 

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Page 22 of 365:

I miss you,

do you miss me, too?

 

Page 15 of 365: Mixed emotions.

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Page 15 of 365:

If you really don’t want me to talk to you, okay I won’t.

But, can you  at least just smile in front of me?

So that I can still feel, somehow, that I’m your friend.

/Ireallydunowhazwrongwithyouorwithme:(

/irrelevantpicture

Page 14 of 365:

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Having a friend who knows you better than yourself and who always believe in you when no one else does is one of the best gift you’ll receive from Heaven.

I’m thankful to have one.

Page 11 of 365: The clouds are crying.

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Page 11 of 365:

The clouds are crying right now and the raindrops became my tears too. Today was a sad day for me though I smiled a lot earlier. And again, it’s all because of you.

 I thought I’d never feel this kind of feeling anymore ‘coz I already told to myself that I don’t deserve this kind of pain. But then, all the heartaches came back when you started to walk away from me without even looking back. Are you really trying your best to avoid and draw yourself away from me?

Well congratulations, you built an unbreakable wall between us. 

Page 10 of 365: Coldness

 

Page 10 of 365:

This water turned into ice when you began to speak.

That’s how cold you act towards me.

tears

And for the nth time, I want to ask.

What happened to you? What happened to me?

What happened to the friendship?

What happened… to us?

I really don’t understand.

I just want everything be back to normal again before I go and can no longer be with you.

But I guess that won’t happen… and it saddened me, to the point that, I cannot smile anymore.

 

Page 9 of 365:

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Page 9 of 365:

This 1 meter distance is killing me.

What happened to us? 

/oldrawing

 

Let me bring you to my world ~

I tried this tutorial and I find it amazing! Thank you Ate Cheska! If you have a tumblr account, do follow her! She’s an awesome blogger and an Artist. *u* Hihi. Actually, these photos were taken when I was still in my 1st year college. The plastic rose and the pendant were given to me by my Bhez Irene when we’re still in High School… as a remembrance, and sign of our friendship. I really treasure these things and until now, they’re in my jewelry box.

And oh, I had a fun, fun, fun, fun day today! Though I’m a bit disappointed, I still enjoyed this day together with Bhez. :) More days like this, please?

I’m Already Missing These People ♥

The people in the photos are awesome! They are the greatest friends I’ve ever met inside the campus! I super miss you guys! :* See you when I see you! :*

<3 Forever in my Heart *u*