February 2015 update!

Yow. How are you worpy friends! It’s been a while again and I’m not sure if someone is still visiting my wordpress blog. Anyway, I have here some update! Hehe.

February is Arts month so meaning… as for students who are inclined to any field of Arts, this month is considered as one of the busiest month of the year. And due to my busy schedule not just in school (blame activities and events that we need to attend huhu, I still have pending works/painting/research requirements plus final exams and presentation huhu much), I haven’t write anything worth posting! But I’ll try to blog what’s happened in the past weeks of my February. Of course, I’ll post some pictures too!

10999816_921843437848811_2571051868018581227_nSo let’s start with this poster. It’s for our short film and was made by a classmate, also our cinematographer. I don’t know if they will upload it on YT but I hope yes so that my friends from other schools can watch too! The truth is, I am so proud to be a part this short film (find my name in the poster lol) and I’m happy that many co-students liked our story though there are some epic parts. Hoho

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???????????????????????????????February 10, we went to Ermita, Manila to visit the Supreme Court of the Philippines coz we’re conducting a research about it but sad, we only went inside of to take pictures with their logo. lels. Heartbroken, we decided to wander around Luneta Park.

???????????????????????????????February 12, some of my classmates went to a gallery in Gateway because our prof required it. It was entitled “Sining Saysay” because the paintings (made by the University of the Philippines Alumni) showed the history of the Philippines.

10968189_1013045882043770_5628278552981810099_nA drawing/sketch made last Feb. 18, 2015. I had my 2nd Nude session and this year’s models were so professional, di sila galaw ng galaw, unlike the last year’s model.

???????????????????????????????And the last photo is for our road illusion! My classmates made it and I’m so proud of them! I didn’t help this time coz I was busy the whole Sunday. But well, there’s always a next time!

So that was it, my February update. Tho there are still 4 days before Feb. ends… and mi amor’s birthday is coming (on 27th) but idk what to do yet. Lols.

Til next time, worpy.

Hello 2015!

???????????????????????????????I know this is late, but it’s better late than never! Hehehe. Happy New Year and Hello 2015! I couldn’t update this blog anymore, and to be honest, I want to delete this already. But you see, I can not just abandon this blog for this is the first ever blog I made. Hehe

So, uhm, what should I say? Uhm, 2014 taught me many lessons? And that last year was such a blast that I received so many blessings that I didn’t expected to receive? And that all of my frustrations in life slowly turned into aspirations with the help of some of the closest people in my life, and that hopes never left me? Well I’ve said it. 2014 so far is the best year of my life. Some of the reasons are:

  1. I got my book published and received my copies exactly on my birthday. Hehe
  2. Luckily entered the Dean’s List.
  3. I finally knew how to control my temper. yey!
  4. I met the guy who I promised to love for the rest of my life.
  5. I’ve learned how to open my heart to the Lord.

Those were the top 5, I guess. And I’m getting lazy again to type more. I’ll cut this short. Hehe. That’s why I am really hoping that this year will be happier and more fruitful! And that I will have more patience and determination for the things that I  am about to do. I am praying for yours too. Happy New Year again! ☺

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“I just realized that sometimes, love is not enough. Not because someone falls in love with you, that’s already it. Not because they tell you they love you it already means that they will stay. Because in one point or another, they will leave you. They will leave when that time comes that they’ll see you the way you see yourself.”
~ maybe he left because he saw me the way i see myself (via escafeism)

Siya, ang aking kailangan.

Siya na palaging nandiyan para magpasaya noong panahon na hindi ko alam kung paano ngumiti.

Siya na hindi ako binitawan kahit na hindi ko hiniling na ako’y kanyang kapitan.

Siya na nagbigay pag-asa noong mga oras na alam kong hindi ko na kaya.

Siya na naging sandalan ko at tumulong sa’kin na tumayo muli, ng mas tuwid, sa aking pagkakadapa.

Siya na patuloy na nagbibigay sa akin ng lakas, tuwing naiisip ko na ang pagsuko na lang ang tanging kong magagawa dahil sobrang hirap na ng sitwasyon.

Siya na nagturo sa akin na maging positibo, kahit na ang mga pangyayari’y parang wala nang kahahantungan na mabuti.

Siya na nagsasabing hindi niya ako iiwan o pababayaan kahit kailan.

Siya na mahal na mahal, hindi lang ako, kundi lahat tayo — at naghihintay lamang na mahalin nati siya.

Siya, ang Panginoon at kataastaasan na hindi napapagod na magbigay, magpatawad, mahalin at tanggapin tayo ng buong puso kahit na minsan ay nakakalimutan at itinatanggi natin Siya sa harap ng maraming tao.

Siya lang ang kailanganin mo at ibibigay niya ang lahat ng nakabubuti sa’yo.

some things i want to do with you, r.m.

I think it would be nice if I wake up beside you on a bed on a rainy morning, covered by a blanket, talking, cuddling, kissing, making love, and we will stay like that until you say that we need to get up. And when afternoon comes, we will cook something to eat but we won’t just focus on eating but also staring at each other at the dining table the whole time, smiling, holding hands, absorbing each other’s love. At 7pm, we won’t bother to take some dinner coz we’re still full from our afternoon brunch, and we will just watch some random movies you’ll pick from the cd racks. We will stay awake until dawn, laughing out loud because of the corny jokes I am saying to you. And then I will sleep in your arms, will hug you so tight, will hope and pray that this kind of love would never end. And it would never ever end.

I think that would be not just nice, but wonderful.

– some things i want to do with you, r.m.

August Update!

August have been pretty good to me, I can say.  There came so many activities (and legal holidays) that suspended the classes for almost one week, and it was fun to stay at home during those days. But now that August is about to end, and I seemed to forgot to update this blog, I am here to tell you a story (whut) on what happened to my August in pictures!

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Augsut 2, 2014. Dong-A hosted a doodle competition in SM Taytay. Since it’s Saturday, and some of my classmates were joining, I also went to watch them compete. But a sudden change of plan was made, and I also became one of the participants in the said event. I don’t know if luck was with me or it was just my day that I belong to the people who won! Yay ‘di ba. Ang saya saya. Tas kasama pa siya. Mas masaya!

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August 8, 2014. It was intramural’s week, though we’re still required to attend classes. My close friend Rona, joined the volleyball team of our department, and as a friend, I did my best to support and cheer for her! lol. She got included to the mythical six! Hooray. And hooray for the CAL’s students for being the champion again.

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August 12, 2014.  I went to my favorite place with B because the next [day[ is our day. We talked about some things, mostly nonsense stuff, and ate isaw isaw. My favorite part was we went to “dulo” and watched the sun set. I always feel happy when I’m with him, even though most of the time, there’s a total silence between us when we’re together. Pero hindi naman awkward, in fact I love it. I only need him beside me, yun lang naman.

We went to plaza after, then continued talking. It was also the day that I saw him cry for the first time (for some topic that I insisted) and it hurts me too, seeing him cry.

10649508_900523989962627_7515953761694322608_nAugust 19, 2014. The Campus Ministry in school (the Soul Surfers) hosted a feeding program. I’m not really an officially member of the group but since it’s my dream to be a part of a feeding program, I asked my boyfriend if I could come along with them and he said yes so I brought some classmates too! It was really a good and happy experience, feeding the children and sharing them the Word of God. ♥

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August 23, 2014. I had a date with these two ladies! (that’s me in the middle). We haven’t bond for months because of our busy schedules, but nothing can stop our wants to be with each other so yeah. Haha. We went to boulevard in San Juan (again) and ate fishballs and laughed at things and took some pictures and laughed again bc of the pictures. I just love laughing with them so much. ♥

august 25August 25, 2014. Monday morning, I woke up feeling itchy and some part of my body were swollen. Allergy sucks, big time! So I sent a message to mommy telling her to bring me to the hospital as soon as she wake up. The doctor injected me some anti allergy directly to my hand’s vein and I swear it hurts soooo much that I cried after! I stayed in the emergency room (bc that’s the only available room for walk in patients) for almost half an hour. I wanted to sleep but I don’t want to sleep there so I insisted mommy to go home instead. After two hours, my swollen face and hands came back to normal but I still feel itchy.

But thank God I am okay now.

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August 28, 2014. I feel down for almost three days bc I am missing him. He’s too busy that we couldn’t even say hi to each other at school. lels. Two days before, he borrowed my flash drive to get his homework that was in my laptop for days, then returned it to me on the 28th. He told me to open a particular folder, and look for something inside.

I found a typed letter from him.

Space and Time

1 meter. The space between you and me.

You pulled me in the water, closer to you. The butterflies in my stomach were present once again. You then wrapped your arms around my waist, and made me locked my arms around your neck.

1 inch. The distance of our parted lips.

You smiled. You looked me in the eyes. You said I love you. Then smile again. I already knew what you were thinking and so I let myself descend under the water with you.

1 second. The time when your lips and mine collide.

You don’t waste a chance. You quickly grabbed my face and kissed my lips without hesitation. It was just only for a second. But for me it was a lifetime to remember.

At three in the morning:

But why? she asked. You just look at her with those kind of stare that she’s afraid to see. Those pity stares that you’ve been hiding for all those times that you two are together.

I can’t bear this anymore, you answered. She then breakdown and cry on the floor, thinking what could’ve been wrong that you decided to be on your own now, to need space, and to live your life without her.

But why, she really don’t understand why. Why you’re leaving her. What’s the reason of falling out of love with her. Why, of all person, you’re the one who got tired of her being weak, fragile, and sensitive. She expected that you’ll understand her attitude over things because you said you would, and that you won’t ever look at her like she’s the pittiest girl that you’ve met because she thinks you don’t want her to feel less confident about herself. But now, why. Why are you doing this to her?

You sighed, I’m tired. Too tired to look after you, to handle your problems, to just being with you, but you didn’t know that she’s tired also. Too tired that she can’t even stand up by herself. And now she understands. What you felt was not love.

It’s just pity.

 

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Sunset is one of the most beautiful scene that I really love to see. It feels good, especially when you’re sharing the moment with the one you love. I always go to my favorite place everytime I feel so down and stress. And yes, it helps me remove the sadness and emptiness I feel when I am seeing the sunset. It’s like when the sun is setting, it is taking the loneliness that you’re feeling too.

It was my first love and it always will be.