pagkasabik

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umiiyak na naman ang langit.
kasabay ng pagtamlay ng buong paligid
ang paglaho ng kulay sa mga bulaklak,
sa kalangitan,
sa kabundukan,
at sa mga matang dati-rati’y puno ng sigla
sa tuwing masisilayan ang isang ngiti,
maririnig ang isang tinig,
at mapapalagay sa isang natatanging piling.

napaisip, gaano na nga ba katagal?
noong huling nasilayan ang liwanag,
huling naramdaman ang init sa mga balat –
ng nagliliyab na araw,
o dagitab ng isang nilalang,
at ang sinabing hindi magmamaliw na nararamdaman.

muli kong pinag-aralan kung paano —
paanong tahimik lang na nahuhulog ang mga luha ng langit sa malamig na aspaltong pinagpapahingahan.
ang maliliit nitong mga patak ay dinama.
pawang nagmistulang mga talulot ng bulaklak sa gaan.
ngunit nakasusugat sa pagtagal.

nagbabakasakaling dito matututunan –
kung paano at kailan muling mahuhulog
magtitiwala
at aasa sa isang kasiyahan na matagal nang kinalimutan
— ng walang pangamba at pagaalinlangan.
gaya ng ulan.

umiiyak na naman ang langit.
ang mga dahon ay nagsisiawit ng pasasalamat,
habang sila’y nananabik sa muling pagsikat ng araw.
katumbas ng pagkasabik kong makaramdam muli —
ng sakit na may halong ligaya,
o kaya ang lumuha ng may dahilan.

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Sa’yo

Pareho kaming pawisan nang tuluyan kaming makapasok sa hall kung saan ang concert ng paborito naming banda. As usual, maraming tao kaya siksikan sa labas pa lang ng Arena.

“Shet, excited na ako.” masaya niyang sabi sa akin habang nakapako ang tingin sa stage. Ang ngiti niya, abot sa magkabilang tainga.

Napangiti na lang din ako bilang sagot. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang excitement niya noong mga oras na iyon. Ang tagal na rin niyang bukambibig ang tungkol sa concert at hindi niya ako tinantanan hangga’t hindi napapapayag. Syempre ako, go lang, palagi basta aya niya.

Lumalim ang gabi at lalong dumami ang tao. Hindi nagtagal, nagsimula nang lumamlam ang mga ilaw sa paligid at tumugtog na rin ang banda. Agad namang nagsihiyawan ang mga nasa paligid, kabilang kami, nang banggitin ang unang salita sa una nilang kanta. Ang sarap sa tenga, parang lagi kang hinaharana.

Pero ang pinakagusto ko, ay yung kantang Sa’yo.

Minsan Oo, minsan hindi~

Pangalawang kanta bago ang huli. Malapit na matapos ang concert.

Minsan tama, minsan mali~

Ah, kailan ko nga ba nagustuhan ang mga kanta ng banda na ito? At kailan ko ba ito naging paborito?

Umaabante, umaatras. Kilos mong namimintasss~

Anim na taon na ang nakalilipas?

Kung tunay nga ang Pagibig mo. Kaya ko bang isigaw~ Iparating sa Mundo~

Hindi ako masiyadong mahilig nakinig ng mga kantang malungkot, o masakit… o basta tumutusok sa damdamin, pero dahil sa kanya, nakahiligan ko ang mga gano’n.

Bakit?

Tumingin, sa’king mata. Magtapat ng nadarama~

Kasi… Anim na taon na rin akong may gusto sa kaniya. Kanino?

Kay Carl.

Kaibigan ko. Tropa.

Kaya ang hirap magtago ng feelings. Pero hindi ko akalain, maitatago ko ng anim na taon.

Saklap ‘no? Anim na taon kong pinapangarap na mahawakan ang kamay niya habang naglalakad; mayakap siya sa malamig, o kahit mainit na gabi; at mahalikan ang mga labi niyang paniguradong malambot. Sobrang saklap. Pero nakaya ko.

Di gustong ika’y mawala~ Dahil handa akong ibigin ka~

At ayoko na. Nung nga oras na iyon, sabi ko ayoko na. Gusto ko nang itigil ang kahibangan na ito.

Kung maging tayo, sa’yo lang ang puso ko.~

“Cherry,”

Tumingin ako kay Carl na nakatingin na sa’kin. “Ano ‘yon?” sagot ko. Ngumiti siya bigla.

Walang ibang tatanggapin, ikaw at ikaw pa rin~

“Ask me a question.” sabi niya.

“Huh?”

May gulo ba sayong isipan, ‘di tugma sa nararamdaman~

“Ask me anything.” sagot niya.

Napakunot ang noo ko. Anong itatanong ko sa kanya?

Kung tunay nga ang pag ibig mo~

“Masaya ka ba?” ang unang tanong na naisip ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.

“Yep. Sobra.”

Tumingin, sa’king mata. Magtapat ng nadarama~

“Then?”

“Next question.”

Natawa ako. Ano bang naiisip niya? “Uhm, nag-eenjoy ka ba?”

Di gustong ika’y mawala~ Dahil handa akong ibigin ka~

“Definitely, yes. Ask me one more.”

Napasalubong ang kilay ko at saka tumawa. “Baliw, kung anu-ano na naman trip mo, matatapos na itong concert magfocus ka nga sa stage.”

Kung maging tayo, sa’yo lang ang puso ko.~

“Basta. Ask me one more. Dali na.”

“Hmmm,” pag-isip isip ko. Gusto ko sana siyang tanungin nung mga oras na iyon ng: Mahal mo rin ba ako? pero siyempre, hindi ko pa rin kaya.

Kailangan ba kitang iwasan~ sa t’wing lalapit may paalam.

“Ano na?”

ibang anyo sa karamihan~

“Wala na akong maisip.” sabi ko. “Bakit ba kasi?”

Iba rin pag tayo, iba rin pag tayo lang~

Nang sabihin ko iyon, bigla siyang napangiti.

“Then it’s my turn? Wala ka nang maisip e.”

“Osige.”

Tumingin, sa’king mata. Magtapat ng nadarama~

“Promise you’ll answer yes?”

Di gustong ika’y mawala~ Dahil handa akong ibigin ka~

“Aba depende, kung uutang ka wala na akong pera.” pagtawa ko.

Kung maging tayo~

Mas lalong lumaki ang ngiti niya. “Please say yes.”

Kung maging tayo~

“Will you be my girlfriend?”

Sa’yo na ang puso ko.~

Goyo: Ang Batang Heneral movie reaction

This may contain spoilers, but I promise I’ll do my best not to say anything that can ruin someone’s excitement to watch the movie aside from Goyo died. he he. Well, this is just a merely movie reaction so this is probably subjective.

Goyo: Ang Batang Heneral, is a movie about Gen Gregorio “Goyo” Del Pilar, who died at a young age during the Philippine-American War in Tirad Pass. It is considered as a sequel to another successful historical epic film by the same director, Jerrold Tarog, entitled Heneral Luna last 2015 as some scenes are connected. Anyway, if you haven’t watched the trailer of Goyo, you can watch it here:

Prior to this, there was a short film that served as a Prelude that was released in Cinema as a commercial / teaser entitled, Angelito, to introduce Goyo, which display its intertwining relationship from the first movie.

Anyway, going back to the purpose of this post, here are my reactions / things I noticed in the film:

  1. The ambiance is much darker (and frustrating, even though you already know the ending) — or is it because the colors are less saturated and it created colder ambiance and emotions? Ah, but this movie weighs too much for me. Huhu.
  2. Unlike the first film, this movie has a touch of romance, narrating Goyo’s relationship with different girls, most esp. with Felicidad and Remedios.
  3. Goyo’s without his uniform was a normal — usual person who just want to enjoy his youth.
  4. Some visual fx are disturbing, esp during the first attack of the Americans at night. The gun fires were too obvious, but well, it is still manageable to be ignored if you choose. Still kudos to the production!
  5. I didn’t feel the other characters. BUT my favorite was Vicente. Oh I love how he portrays such a good example of a Captain and a true friend! I cried over the scene where he was informed of Goyo’s death. *le cries* T_T
  6. Speaking of Goyo’s death, I just couldn’t accept that he died that way. I mean, he could have just died in a battle! But being shot while just standing and thinking — or maybe more like accepting their fate of losing, or reminiscing everything — is not okaaaaay for me. Oh my heart. MY HEART!!!
  7. I really hate Aguinaldo in both films. Grrr.
  8. I love that they used symbolism in the film — some are the mango scene, the dreams, Goyo’s drowning in the lake, the Gavel, etc.
  9. I hate Aguinaldo.
  10. I was hoping to know the real reason of Gen. Luna’s death. But oh well, I guess there will be more films in the future? Hoping.

I can’t say that it’s the best of Tarog’s films for now, but it was promising! I like Luna’s story more (AND I LOVE BLISS!!!), but of course, they lived different lives, so I still can’t judge lol.

Anyway, Goyo is still fafable.♥

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24th ♥

Hello worpy! How are you? It’s been a while again. I’ve been busy with some things and I’m glad that I still get  by despite of every shitty things in my surroundings. We really don’t have a choice but to live the life we have, and hope someday we would be able to make it much better. Hehe. But anyhow, I’m here to blog about my 24th birthday, let’s just forget the negativity for a while.

I can’t believe that my month is about to end in two weeks! I’m still expecting some get together with old friends this coming days. Hihi. And so, just like what I said in the intro, I’m here blog about my 24th birthday celebration! it’s not that grand and I only celebrated it with my favorite people, and that’s more than enough.

Well, my birthday was a pretty normal day to me except from I didn’t render an overtime and went home early, visited lola and daddy’s place in Holy, ate at a fast food resto all by myself while reading my favorite webtoon, and was greeted by  my family, which made my day a bit special. But my whole day, I spent it in my room, sleeping, trying to gather strength for another shift for work. Hehe. Adulting kinda sucks, but it’s also fun especially when you earn money to buy the stuff you want. :p

Oh! A friend visited the house and she brought a cake. I thought she wouldn’t be able to greet me since she’s busy and I was too (busy sleeping lol), but mother woke me up saying Gracia is there. I was touched, really. Hehe. Here’s the cake she brought for me — may faaaave, choco mousse of Goldilocks.

PicsArt_07-15-11.01.22We talked for hours and forgot about time. We both need to go to work that day, so of course, she needed to go and I also needed to prepare. I’m truly happy that she made time for my day, despite of the busy schedule we both have.

The next days were normal, but the greetings didn’t end. My office mates still greet me ‘happy birthday’ and one of them also treated me food. Haha! They were all teasing me for ice cream tho. xD

Saturday came and my fam prepared a small gathering. Some friends and my sister’s friends came to celebrate with me. It was so fun ’cause we did videoke and sang all our hearts (and lungs hahaha) out.  We were so full from the food my mother cooked. I swear, she’s the best cook in the whole wide world for me~

PicsArt_07-15-11.00.31My second birthday cake~ It was given by my eldest brother and his partner. But it says it’s from Lucky! The baby dog we’ve been taking care of since last year. Lucky was a street dog, it followed my elder brother home, so my brother decided to take and keep it. But things became a bit complicated upon Lucky’s arrival so we gave it to our eldest brother. Now, Lucky is staying at my eldest brother house. Lucky visits the house from time to time tho. :)

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Annnd, here’s my fam. I know, I know, all of us are ~healthy~ hahaha!

Sunday came, and I must say that this is my most awaited day for me than my birthday (weird right? hahaha), because we were going to Art In Island! Actually, we already plan this day ahead of time. And we were all so excited!!! Sad that some of us couldn’t (didn’t he he he) come.

PicsArt_07-15-10.53.02It’s our first time together to visit the museum, and we were like children running inside the whole place upon entering! As much as I wanted to post all of the pictures here, I could not because there are so many. I only selected some photos to share. :)PicsArt_07-15-10.46.49This may seem so high school, but this photo style never gets old! :D Anyway, Art in Island is only in Cubao! The fee is a bit pricey but hey, it’s worth it! The murals are all breathtaking and awesome! They will leave you in awe. What’s more surprising is, the murals were created in just 120 days by the Artists! How could they be so talented?

PicsArt_07-15-10.51.54This is the only photo that we have that we’re complete. It’s really hard to have our photo taken together because no one would take for us. Thank you to one of the staff who took this! Hihi.

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Ehem, the girls of BFA. I know right? We’re all pretty~ Haha! And I’m sorry, I took much of the space on the right. Hehehe.PicsArt_07-15-10.55.40

Ang taba ko nakakainis, but this is my favorite photo! I wish I could use these wings and fly in real life. Hays. Hehe. Kidding.

The place was big, and I swear we got tired (or I only got tired? Mehe). Since there were also many people, we didn’t get the chance to take a pic to some of the murals. We went home at 5pm because the weather started to get mad. Hehe.

Ey! A friend also cooked a carbonara (with a burnt pasta xD). It’s still delicious and edible tho. Hehehe. I’m still thankful for all the efforts. So much ♥

The next day, I also met some old buddies (you already met them thru this post) to also celebrate my birthday. Truth is, I don’t have any idea how to spend the day with them, so Leidude suggested a place, which is the Paragon. It’s a KTV place which has rooms and you can eat while singing Karaoke! We all love to sing, obviously. Hehe.PicsArt_07-17-08.41.52I don’t have enough pictures to post from our singing sessions because of my cp battery’s life. We stayed there for four hours and went home.

Dude and I had dinner at Kuya J’s, but I only ordered dessert. Hehehe. I was soooo full from the drinks and foods we had at Paragon’s. Hehehe. I think I got a bit drunk? This is a secret. :p

I still have some remaining days (because it’s still July) to celebrate with friends that I haven’t seen yet.

Still thankful for this life. ♥

 

Eldar’s place, harthart

Hola pips! How’s your weekend? Mine was indeed awesome! Hehe. I’m here to blog about my magical experience yesterday, together with old (but still remain) good buddies. Yesterday’s more like a birthday celebration of my dude — none other than Lei — and I’m glad I am able to celebrate it with her.

It’s not my first time in EK, but this is the first time I truly enjoyed the place (and the rides)! Sad that the Space Shuttle’s not available. Huhuhu. I haven’t tried it since!!! And I also wasn’t able to ride my favorite, Anchor’s Away. They didn’t want to go onto the ride and I also didn’t want if they won’t. Huhu.

It also rained hard in the afternoon so we didn’t go to Wheel of faith to enjoy the view. Sighhhhssss 10x. But despite of every “little” jinx that had happened before, during, and after, the day turned out all well :)

Here are some photos I took~ bear with the blurry ones

PicsArt_06-25-11.43.20Let’s start with this photo. Since the sun was extremely striking hot that morning, only few people were around. It’s in the afternoon that the people started to grow in number.

I didn’t bring my camera with me so I only used my phone. Reason is, I went there to enjoy the place with my own eyes. Hekhek. But of course, I couldn’t help myself not to take my phone out of the bag and took some shots.

PicsArt_06-25-02.04.20This one’s my new favorite ride! Disk-O-Magic is the name, if I remember it well. Or is it only because the sun, the wind, and everything was very beautiful that moment that when I was riding it, I feel like I was shooting a music video or watching a semi-romantic, pero mag-isa ka lang kaya medyo dramatic scene? Hahaha. If I could just record what my eyes have seen, then I could share what I am talking about. Hehe. Seems like the feeling was very comforting.

PicsArt_06-25-11.14.38I think this is the only decent picture I had with dude, coz everything else are just snaps and wacky selfies. Thanks to K for taking this photo.

PicsArt_06-25-11.38.13I was also able to experience their new ride! Tho it’s not that very different to the 4D experience of Realto. The difference is just before you enter the “theater”, there are some shows/intros or displays first to watch and see.

PicsArt_06-25-11.40.49Oh, oh! Here is the “Mag-Anak”, an amazing wood sculpture of an Eagle Family made by an artist named James Doran Webb. It has subtitle that says: Unconditional and Enduring Love. There’s a video of how the artwork was built, playing in the lobby before you go up to the theatre area, and I swear, I remembered daddy when I saw this piece. Well, we have some eagle sculptures at home, maybe almost 5 or 6 pieces that my daddy made when he was still alive. Some of it are not done yet, and I am planning to self study wood sculpting to finish the unfinished.

The sculpture made me sad, and I think the title and the description matched very well to the artwork.PicsArt_06-25-11.28.33The night came and the place started to be more colorful because of the lights. Since I only have my phone with me and a friend to be a subject of my “gaze” series without him knowing, I didn’t get some decent shots.

Anyway, that moment in this photo brought me old feelings and memories. And upon reminiscing and trying to absorb it all, it is now clear that there’s really a fine line, with indefinite thickness, between me and them or that specific person;that there’s a wall  standing in between ever since that we (I) don’t notice or pretend that we (I) don’t, but at the same time, knew that really exists. Heh, I don’t know if I make sense with what I am saying. But with everything I have heard and observed that day, this sad realization hit me.

They still remain important to me, anyway. :)

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But hey, it’s me trying to look cute and fluffy, and them being… themselves. Mehehe.

PicsArt_06-25-01.58.54Good thing that the heavy rain stopped before it’s time for the fireworks!!! Aaaahhh I hope it lasted longer, but of course, walang forever? Hahaha kidding. It really is a magical experience, but… I think it’s more magical if you’re with the people who truly makes you happy, and with the people who you truly make happy. :)

 

panaginip

darating ang isang araw na akala mo ay iba sa maraming araw na alam mo na ang nangyari.

sa araw na iyon ay hindi ka makakaalis at patuloy kang magpapaikot ikot sa malalaking alon at bagyo sa gitna ng dagat habang kausap mo ang isa sa pinaka importanteng tao sa iyong buhay at sinasabi mo ang lahat ng iyong nasaksihan upang maiwasan ang mga kaganapan. muli siyang magpapaalam sa’yo kahit matagal na siyang wala. hihingi siya ng tawad dahil iyon lang ang kaya niyang gawin. iiyak ka ng iiyak. hindi mo gustong iwan ka nila, pero mangyayari pa rin ang dapat na mangyari.

darating ang pagtatapos, kailangan magsindi ng apoy at hindi mo alam kung para saan. ilang beses mamamatay ang liyab dahil sa hangin, ngunit sisindihan muli. subalit ito’y mamamatay pa rin.

sa huli ay matatanggap mo na lamang na hindi magtatagumpay ang alab kung ito’y pinipilit lang. sa huli ay matatanggap mo na rin na susunod pa rin ang tadhana sa naaayon niyang gawin.

Meh.

I’ve been staring at my laptop’s screen for more than thirty minutes now, (and now an hour has passed, just to finish this post) trying to find the right words on how I should explain what I feel.

Empty? No. I know I feel something.
Bothered? Maybe? But to what?
Tired? Exhausted? Burnout? Anxious? Yes? But definitely not depressed.

I’ve been repressing my thoughts and emotions these past few months, hoping that if I don’t entertain them, they would stop. But I was wrong. And now it grew this much.

People who really knew me knows how much I love to write or talk to them about anything. Especially what I’m feeling. But now even that, I find too tiring. I don’t know why though. Parang nagsawa na ako. 

I haven’t been able to write also, or talk to a friend at least. One of the reasons is we are all busy. I am very busy. Wala akong time makadama ng kahit na ano, wala akong time gumawa ng kahit na ano. But at night when I’m travelling home, or when I’m about to sleep, my chest feels heavy. I suddenly want to cry, or scream, or just dance, or throw everything my hand could hold. Ang gulo diba? Hindi mo alam kung anong gagawin mo.

Even though I am able to do a lot at work, and finish all the jobs that are assigned to me, it seems that it’s still not enough; that I don’t achieve anything; that my life’s still stagnant. Walang fulfillment. Walang development. Wala pa rin kahit na parang ang dami mo nang nagawa.

Maybe I’m just tired — sa work (???). Or maybe there’s nothing new anymore. Everything just became a routine. I’ll wake up at 3am, go to work at 5, be at the office before 7, will render at least 4 hours of overtime, will go home. Sleep for 5 hours, lucky if I get home early and there’s no traffic. Repeat the cycle. Every. Boring. Day.

But.

I’m still thankful that I am able to experience this. Means I’m still alive yeah?

But again.

UGH I DON’T KNOW.

Maybe I’ll just sleep.

Summer Escapade(s) : Calayo Beach, Canyon Cove

Holla! How are you pips? As for me, I’m doing fine. I chose to be, because you know, sometimes shit happens in life and that’s natural. You just need to be strong and wise enough to handle them. lol.

Ayway, I miss blogging and the days when I can still have some time writing in my room about my day, even though it seemed nonsense. So now, I’d just like to share some photographs I took during my summer escapades this month. We went to Nasugbu, Batangas (Calayo Island and Canyon Cove) last May 20, and May 26. It’s a family outing and a company outing.

The first outing was unplanned. I was supposed to be meeting a friend that day, but had to cancel it (I hate cancelling plans tho huhu) just to join the family outing. But glad I did ’cause it’s much fun spending the day with the people you’re really comfortable being with.

IMG_8876We didn’t check-in in a resort, we just rented a nipa hut along the shore, owned by a relative. You can also rent some tent to spend the night! I just wished we could, but sad that we had to go home that day too. (we got stuck in  traffic along Cavite for four fcking-long hours!!! We got home at 12 midnight, can you believe that??!)

IMG_8755IMG_8798Hello to my sister and I’s feet (and huge legs!!! he he he)IMG_8756IMG_8801IMG_8828One of the things I like in this place is the fine sand! If you’ll compare this to other beaches, the sand is not that white, but it’s one of the finest I’ve seen! Other beaches have rocks and seashells that can hurt your feet, but the sand in this place don’t have much so it’s okay to walk even though you don’t have slippers or any protection for your feet. You just have to endure the heat tho. Hehehe.

IMG_8852See, how awesome it could be to spend the night facing the shore. Ahhh, I wanna go back here again and do bonfire!

IMG_8833I’m amazed that the beach is just on the other side of the road to the people living there! I am jealous that they could go whenever they wanted anytime!!! Huhu.

IMG_8827The sea water, let’s now talk about the sea water: It’s really salty!!! I know it’s natural to be that salty, but I think it’s a bit more? But it’s okay. Though it was too hot that day, the water is colder than I expected. That’s why it’s okay to be swimming under the heat of the sun! Mehehe.

If I’m going to rate this beach experience, I’ll give it 4/5 stars!

And now, I’m going to talk about my Canyon Cove experience. The place is a beauty. The pools are big, but I really didn’t enjoy the sea and the sand. It has rocks and shells that made hard for me to walk barefeet. Lts of seaweed are also present in the sea water, and it made me scared to go further. I’m afraid that I might step onto something. Hehe. But it still good!

IMG_8912The first word that came into my mind is beautiful upon arriving. All of the exhausting feeling suddenly vanished due to the comforting vibe the resort have. The architectural view is satisfying.

IMG_8914I didn’t get the chance to swim and enjoy longer in the water because our time is limited only. Mas mahaba pa nga yung time ng biyahe, seryoso. The sun is also in its maximum that day and it’s very extra-extremely-very hot!!!!

IMG_8924IMG_8921IMG_20180526_093708I enjoyed the team building activities tho. I was able to talk to my other co-workers that I am not talking to in the office. I’m still that awkward girl in the corner, you know. I really prefer to be alone now. I realized that sometimes, we just need solitude to grow. But there are times that it’s also fun to be with new people and… environment. Honestly, these past few days inside the company is too toxic, but well, we must endure everything to survive.

PicsArt_05-27-01.15.13Anyyyway, I also want to go back here with my family. Maybe after a year? Hehe. My rating to this experience would be 3.8/5

So that’s the highlight of my May! I thought my summer would be all boring and will only revolve around home and office, but it is not!

I’m excited for June and July tho. I already have plans to look forward too. I just hope nothing will happen to jeopardize everything.

Nang magadbentyur ang lampa — First hike: Mt. Masungki

I couldn’t think of any title for this post plus feeling ko ‘yan ang mas appropriate para rito, and I admit na lampa naman talaga ako, so ayun. Siguro, ito na rin ang gagamitin ko sa mga susunod kong adbentyur. ;)

Anyway, our original plan was to climb Nagpatong Rock, pero sabi ng tour guide namin, named kuya Edward, mas okay raw na unahin namin ang Mt. Masungki para ‘pag uuwi na, tuloy tuloy na yung daan papunta sa Nagpatong. We really have no idea na sobrang hardcore (for beginners) na pala nung Mt. Masungki at akala namin simpleng akyat lang talaga. Kaya nag ‘G’ kami. Yun pala, nag tindi. Tipong ‘di na namin kakayanin mag-isa pang bundok after. Mehehe. Hindi rin naman pala alam ng tour guide namin na first timers kami. Hahaha!

Wala akong docu kung gaano kahaba ang binaybay ng trike namin papunta sa Brgy. Cuyambay, but swear, sobrang layo. It’s not my first time going to Tanay, pero ang layo pala talaga nung Brgy. Cuyambay. Nadaanan pa nga namin ang Sierra Madre resort e. But ayun, going back to Brgy. Cuyambay, nagpunta muna kami sa Tourism office nila para magparegister. Good catch na rin na nag-trike kami from Tanay hanggang sa Brgy. Cuyambay kahit na mas mahal. 500php ang binayad namin sa trike, but kung magjejeep ka from Tanay hanggang Sampaloc, 28php ang fair then 50php per head sa trike papuntang rgy. Cuyambay. Mas maganda talaga kung meron kayong sasakyan. Less hassle.

Moving forward, 100php ang registration per person ng 500php for the tour guide. Minimum members ay 5 per group, but since anim kami at pinayagan naman, mas maliit ang hatian.

IMG_5204Here’s Nica and me. Kami na lang yung dinala ni Kuyang Trike Driver para magparegister sa toursim office ng Brgy. Cuyambay kasi matarik yung dadaanan.

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From left to right, Shine, Steve, Rona, Kuya Jhen, Me, Kuya Edward (our tour guide) and Nica in front.

IMG_5296It was exciting and fun at first kasi hindi mo pa dama ang pagod, pero kapag tumatagal, pahirap na ng pahirap. Nahilo pa nga ako, at legit na nanikip ang dibdib ko, wala pa kami sa kalagitnaan kaya naman binuhat na ng kasama ko ang aking bag. Super thankful talaga na ang babait nila at inaalalayaan ako palagi. The best talaga ang mga boys ng BFA batch 2017! Huhu. Feeling ko nga super pabigat ako sa kanila kasi napapabagal ang akyat namin dahil sa akin.

IMG_5301May mga nadaanan kaming iba pang bundok, pero wala siyang OL at part talaga siya ng way papunta sa Mt. Masungki.

IMG_5306May major stop over sa Mt. Ikmo, bale may tables do’n and mini tindahan. Ang cool nga ng mga signages, sayang hindi ko napicture-an. Nung una hindi ko maintindihan kasi akala ko yun yung tawag sa kanila like, kunwari, may isang sinkhole kaming nadaanan, then may nakalagay do’n “SING CHOLE”. Akala ko yun yung name nung butas, hindi pala. Narealize ko na lang nung nakakita pa ako ng isa pang signage, sabi “COME SIGHT” tas may kubo dun. “CAMP SITE” pala ang ibig sabihin. Mehehe.

20180331_100207.jpgMahaba-habang akyat din yung nangyari, siguro inabot ng 3hrs? Kasi patigil-tigil kami gawa nga sa akin. Nadudulas ako tas nasusubsob, then hinihingal pa. Hindi naman kasi ako pala-labas at taong kwarto lang talaga ako plus, lampa nga kasi talaga kaya ayon. I feel bad lang kasi parang ang laki kong sagabal talaga e. Hahaha!

But ayun, despite of the pauses and breaks that we had to take para lang makahabol ako, nakaakyat naman kami sa itaas.

Friends, I must say hindi madali. Lalo na for me dahil I am scared of heights. Umiiyak ako habang tinatawid yung isang bato pappunta sa isa pang bato para maakyat namin yung tuktok ng Masungki. Mabuti na lang talaga inaalalayan ako ng mga kasama kong lalaki. Nahiya nga ako e, yung girl friend nung isa hindi niya naalalayan kasi ako yung inaalalayan. :(

20180331_100434.jpgThe view was breathtaking. Hindi ko nakunan yung iba pang side kasi lulang-lula na ako. Pakiramdam ko hinahatak ako ng gravity pababa e.

Syempre, dahil successful namin naiakyat ang Mt. Masungki, ‘di pwedeng walang pictures. Ang cool nga ng tour guide namin kasi ang ganda ng mga shots niya!

IMG_5392IMG_5395IMG_5402IMG_5507Hindi ko akalain na makakaakyat ako sa ganito. I am so proud of myself, really. Iniyakan ko itong akyat na ito kasi hindi talaga ako dapat papayagan, at ayun, umiyak din ako while climbing, pero worth it lahat ng tears! Nakailang “Thank you Lord” din ako habang tinatahak ang bundok na ito e.

IMG_5515Ang dungis ko, sobra. Ako ang pinakamadungis sa amin gawa ng ako ang pinaka maraming subsob at dulas. Hahaha! And now, super sakit ng katawan ko. I can’t even sit without feeling pained. Huhu.

But wait! There are three things that I realized sa akyat na ito and I just want to include them in this post:

  1. Mahal ko pala talaga ang buhay ko. It’s true that you’ll do everything to survive — you’ll forget your fears, you’ll neglect the pain, and you’ll do whatever it takes just to survive.
  2. In every pain and hardship comes happiness and ease. Nakakapagod, oo. Sumakit buong katawan ko, oo. Nadulas ako, nasubsob ako, nagasgasan ako, nagkaroon ako ng pasa, at naiyak ako kasi ang hirap, oo, pero masaya. Worth it lahat sa dulo lalo na nung nasa taas na, especially nung nakababa na not just nakaya namin, but because safe kaming lahat nakababa. Hahaha!
  3. Difficult situation makes a lot easier if you’re with the right people. Hindi lang sa akyat na ito, kasi totoo naman ‘di ba? Dumadali ang isang bagay kung tamang tao ang mga kasama mong gumawa nito. Sometimes, they become your motivation too, or inspiration para ipagpatuloy yung ginagawa mo.

So yeaaaah, I’ll look forward sa next kong adbentyur. Sobrang nag-enjoy ako rito kahit ngayon I feel like baldado. Nawala rin lahat ng iniisip ko, at pumalit lang kung paano ako makakauwi ng buhay e! Hahaha! I’ll look forward sa next kong adbentyur, and I hope sila pa rin ang kasama ko. ;)

P.S. almost of the photos were grabbed from Nica. ^_^

i lik–$?2(*!;”@@ u too ???

i like the way you act
and your shyness that i see.
i like the sound of your voice
and your laugh that’s so deep.
i like the bags under your eyes,
most specially when you smile.
and of course, your eyes
when they’re looking into mine.

i like it even though you forget
some details about me,
and when you try to remember
the things you don’t know about yet.
i like it even though i think
you will also disappear.
and soon you’ll run away,
and will leave me like they did.

~ r.m.