Pinilit… pinipilit (Isang tula na dahil sa’yo, hindi para sa’yo)

Di ko na mabilang —
Siguro’y sinadya na ring kalimutan
— ang mga araw na nagdaan
Na wala ka sa isipan
At sa aking tabi,
Tuwing gabi,
Tuwing naiinip,
At naghahanap ng sasagip
Sa aking sarili.

Ngunit sa bawat araw
At bawat sandali
Na ninais kong ilimbag
At isulat sa papel
Ang damdamin kong nagliliyab
Upang maibsan ang bigat
ay nasisilip ka sa mga letra
Mga salita, mga talata
Na dati’y iyong tinitirhan
Ngunit iyong nilisan.
Awtomatik na lumalabo’t
Nawawalang saysay
Ang mga paningin
at mga kamay
Na pawang ‘di na alam
kung anong silbi nila sa katawan.

Isang beses rin nakita ko,
Hindi sinasadya ito,
Ang mga lumang litrato mo
(Natin, dahil kasama ako)
na nasa loob na ng sobreng
mukhang mas bago pa
Kaysa sa nalimot mong pangako.
Doon napagmasdan ko
(Doon lamang, tunay na nakalulungkot)
Sa larawan na may ngiti mo
— ngiti ng iyong mga labi,
Mga mata at puso —
Kung paanong ang isang tao’y
Maaaring maging maligaya’t
makaramdam ng pagmamahal
Ng walang katapusan.

Lumipas ang buwan;
Ang mga oras ay humaba.
Lumalim, lumamig
Lalong ‘di alintana
Ang mga itinagong sakit,
Mga tinakpang butas
Gamit lamang ang pagtawa.
Nakangiti akong lumabas,
Magiliw na naglakad,
Halos kawayan ang lahat,
Upang ipakitang wala nang sugat
Wala ring peklat
Na dulot ng iyong pang iiwan.

Kaso, palaging may kaso.
Dahil nakadaumpalad ko
ang isa sa kakilala mo.
Muli ka niyang hinanap
Tinanong at kinamusta.
Ngumiti ako ng masigla
Inakalang ayos na
Kaya ko na
Nalimot ko na.
Ngunit ako na nama’y nawala
Naubusan ng sasabihin
At mga dahilan
Sa hindi ko sinasadyang
pag-babalik tanaw
Sa sinubukan
At pinilit
na binura kong ala-ala.

 

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“Kinakarir”

Hi guys! How are you? I hope you’re doing great! If you’re going to ask me, I’m fine. I just celebrated my 22nd birthday last 10th of July! Wasn’t able to post some pics tho. I only had a nice dinner with my family. My eldest brother cooked for me. :)

Going through, I’m kinda loaded but still can find extra time to do and discover things I love. I just finished editing the annual book of our school in 2014. There were some mistakes in the layout and printing so a hundred of printouts has returned to us for editing. Glad that the soft copy of it was found and sent to us so we didn’t have to start from the scratch!

By the way, I am just here to share to you some of my works I’ve made in the past week. As I told you in one of my post, we are learning about how to vector in our CAD subject. This kind of art really amuses me to the point that I’m getting addicted to it. Lol. It started when our Instructor told us to create our self portrait vector. At first, I really didn’t know how to do it. I was really confused because you have to create soooo many shapes and lines and some of them are overlapping! It is literally such a pain in the eyes.

As much as I wanted to post and also include here the process on how I did it, I couldn’t. I forgot to do some print screen of it step by step. So instead, I’m just going to share to you three of the vector portrait I’ve made!

rijmassHere is the first. Since it’s my first time, you can see that it’s not that super smooth and there are parts of my work that are edgy. Hihi. It took me so long to figure out how to layer it. I  mean, the shapes. It’s hard to explain. Haha. I also ran out of time so I just fill some spaces with colors.12805707_808853429219366_1044642482639453513_nThis is the second I made. Say hi to my sister! Actually, I wanted to do another one for myself because I was not satisfied with the first. But being a (weird) artist, I really couldn’t draw (or create) my self! So I decided to vector my sister’s face instead of mine. This time, I studied my subject and took a long time figuring out what to layer first. Heehee. I suggest, (and our instructor suggests too), it’s much better if you do the base first. For example, my base for this piece is the second color after the highlight.

TabaMy third work. Guess who? Yes, it’s my brother! I’m really planning to do our family picture. HAHAHA just kidding. I experimented some colors here, and searched on the net. I posted these two (my sister’s and brother’s) on fb and many people reacted. Hehe. If you want me to make a vector of you too, just contact me thru facebook!

So what do you think about the newly learned kind of art? :)

Lines and Fills

Holah! How are you Worpy friends? If you’ll gonna ask me, I would say that I’m doing good. I’m just busy researching and thinking about a concept for our thesis! Yep, thesis! We’re in our last year already and next year would be our graduation! Hooooray! I just hope we all survive this year.

Anyway, we’re currently doing something for our CAD subject and that is tracing / converting into polygons some iconic people, local or international. Of course, I chose Ms. Saoirse Ronan (again) to be my subject. Photo credits to Google.

Here is my reference:

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Well, uhm, this is my first time doing this kind of “art”. A lot of patience will be needed because you’re going to do some detailing later on. Oh and by the way, you can call this kind of art as “Vector Portrait”. You can see so many Vector arts in the internet and this is only one of the ways you can vector some pictures. I used Corel Draw x7 here, A4 size, 300 resolution.

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toolSo first, you have to drag the picture that you’re going to trace inside the working area. Be sure to place it at the center or if you want, click the picture and press the letter P on the keyboard. It will automatically be placed at the center. Only the objects inside the working area will be included if you’re going to export it as .PDF. But if you’re gonna export the file in .PNG, you’ll have to erase all the extra objects outside the working area because it will be included in exportation. Get it? I hope so. Hehe.

After dragging the picture inside, you have to lock it to not move. Draw some lines (like the pic above) but make sure all the lines are perfectly connected for the filling later. Use the 2-point line tool for making lines. See the pic at the right to where to find the 2-point line tool.

When you finished lining all the parts, it’s time for filling!

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Find the smart fill tool and start filling all the spaces. Choose a color that suits your taste. After filling all of them, you have to select all the objects and unfill all of it by clicking at the lower right part of the tab. Click the fill color and choose no fill like this:

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As you can see at the pic below, the fill color is empty. Now, select the Color eyedropper tool and you can select color at the picture, and the cursor will be automatically become the Smart Fill tool again and fill every spaces. To select another color for another space, hold SHIFT key.

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After filling every shapes, select all the object by highlighting them and click the outline color at the lower right part of the the tab, right after the Smart fill color, and select None. so it will look like this:

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You need to be OC in doing this so that you can avoid mistakes. The only problem that you will face in making this kind of Art is when the lines are not closed. Imagine that, you need to find two lines that aren’t connected among many lines! Such a pain in the eyes.

Anyways, It’s up to you if you will fill the background too. But for me, it’s a necessary to make it look good.

You can group all the objects by selecting all of them – right click – select Group objects, then set aside it by putting it outside the working area. I also did all the steps for the background —  Lines. Fill. Unfill. Fill again.
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So here’s the finish product!
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I’m happy with the result tho there are some part of the artwork that needs to be edited. Heehee. But for now, I’ll just leave it like that. I don’t know if I explained the process properly but you can explore Corel Draw more and learn something from it! There are many tutorials in Youtube too.

So, that’s all for today. Have a happy Sunday! ☺

Isang tula, dalawang kataga: “Kailangan kita”

“kailangan kita,” sabi mo.
Tinignan ka niya sa mga mata,
Hinawakan ang iyong mga palad
At sinabing “nandito lang ako.”
Sinalo niya ang iyong mga luha
Habang pasan rin ang iyong dinadala.
Sinabayan ka niya sa iyong paglalakad

– Hindi ka niya hinayaang mag-isa.

Pagkaraan ng mga araw,
Naging matatag ka.
Kaya mo na ang iyong sarili,
Kaya mo nang wala siya.
‘di nagtagal, ikaw ay kaniyang tinanong,
“ayos ka na ba?”
At ngumiti ka bilang sagot.
Simulo noon ay alam na niya

– Hindi mo na siya kailangan.

 

“kailangan kita,” sabi niya isang araw.
Tinignan ka niya sa iyong mga mata,
Ngunit tinitigan mo lang siya.
Ang kanyang mga palad,
naghihintay ng may hahawak.
Umaasa siyang sasaluhin mo rin
Ang kaniyang mga luhang
bumabagsak.

Ngunit wala ka.
Hindi mo siya sinamahan,
Hindi mo siya sinabayan
Sa paglangoy sa lawa
ng mabibigat na problema.

Mag-isa siyang sumuong.
Mag-isang sumuko.
Gusto niyang kayanin, ngunit
hindi nangyari

– naubos ang kaniyang lakas
dahil ibinigay niya lahat sa’yo.