Hating myself…

I hate you for making me feel this way.

I hate you for not caring about me.

I hate you for being so insensitive.

I hate you for saying you love me when you don’t mean it.

I hate you for acting as if nothing happened.

I hate you for smiling in front of me while I’m crying.

I hate you for doing this to me.

I hate you for hurting me.

And I hate myself… for loving a person like you.

I smiled. I cried.

“Promise?”

“Promise.”

You said you’ll always love me. You said you’ll never gonna leave me. You even said that you’ll never forget me. And you said that, together, we will always be happy. I smiled, hoping that what you’ve said to me were true.

“You promised. Right?”

“Yeah. But I’m sorry.”

You said you’re sorry. You said you didn’t mean to hurt me. You even said that it wasn’t you who I destined to love. And you said that we should stop this relationship we have. I cried, hoping that what you’ve said to me weren’t true.